Gaining

I had to wait a little while before I posted this.  I was so mad and upset, I just didn't think it would be a good post.
I gained weight for the first time since 2/1/12.  It was only 1.5lbs, but the mental toll that it took on me has been amazing.  Not in a good way.  I immediately felt worthless and terrible when I saw that number on the scale.  Right now, I'm just hoping it's water weight that will fix itself this week.  I've still been eating healthily, exercising regularly too.  Although I haven't exercised as much between being sick recently and working a lot.  In any case, I have stewed about this situation for almost 2 days, so it's time to stop!  I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing.  I WILL get to that one-derful weight at some point, so I'm going to try to stop sweating exactly how fast I get there.  I know all this mental stuff is happening because I'm very very close to the lowest I've weighed of all the times I've tried to lose weight.  When I get past that point, I think I'll feel really productive.  Anyhow, chin up...

Victories

I'm trying not to measure my success strictly based on "scale victories," but last week, I lost 5.5 lbs!  That hasn't happened in quite some time.  Today, I am 13 weeks postop, tomorrow makes 3 months.  70 lbs down! It's feels like a short time and a long time at the same time.  If that makes any sense at all.

As for "non-scale victories," there have been a couple.  I'm still getting lots of compliments on my appearance lately.  Actually, it's making me feel really embarrassed and awkward!  Guess I'll have to get used to it.  Also, it seems that a couple of people may be wanting to go back to the gym, saying that I've motivated them!  Crazy!  I've never been on the motivating end of things.  Pretty cool.  Now, if i can just get them to go with me...

I've caught a cold or something.  Blah.  I'm sure it's the silly sick kiddos from work.  The only cool thing is that it really shows me how far I've come in the past 3 months.  I've been going crazy the past 3 days, not feeling up to my usual level of activity.  No fun.  Even had to cancel with Trainer Tim today.  I'm hoping that another day will have me on my way back to normal.  I'm actually kind of annoyed that I'm sick at all, considering that I've been taking such good care of myself.  I've been making good food choices, eating often to keep my metabolism up, taking my vitamins, getting lots of exercise, and getting enough sleep.  I would have thought my immune system was good to go.  I guess my immune system gets quite the workout, with working around so many sick kids all the time.

Speaking of work, that's been emotionally tough lately.  Seems like so many sad stories coming through.  I keep giving and giving of myself, but it's becoming quite taxing on my heart.  I'm trying not to get dragged down by it.  I have faith that things happen for a reason and that God is using me in the way he wants me to be used, but I so wish that I could fix all the sick and injured children!  It's just not fair!  These are the times when I have to think of those special miracle kids that I've taken care of...

Measurements 6/1

Trainer Tim did my measurements again today.  It's been about 2.5 weeks again...
Arms -1"
Chest - 0.25"
Waist - 1"
Hips - 2.25"
-7 pounds
- 0.9%  body fat

I was pretty happy with that!  :)
Check out my progress in pics.  I can finally see a decent difference in how I look!